Just a story of my imagination...haha...Sorry for all the errors...
Looking at the blue sky always makes me wondering. To think. Again and again. I don’t know what I am thinking about. It is just blank. The only thing I saw is an empty space. I keep on digging. Hope for it to come out. Yet till today, I still look at the same blank blue sky.
Looking at the blue sky always makes me wondering. To think. Again and again. I don’t know what I am thinking about. It is just blank. The only thing I saw is an empty space. I keep on digging. Hope for it to come out. Yet till today, I still look at the same blank blue sky.
“Hey, Jane! Do you have anything today?”
My focus is distracted. I let my two eyes lay on her face. She smiles but I don’t reply. I take all my stationery on the table, put them all into my bag and run out from the class. I don’t care if she wants to think anything bad. I mean it is her right to do so. I keep walking and walking until I can see the bright sky on me. Here it is, outside the school compound... A way back home...
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“WAKE UP! WAKE UP!!!”
The same voice, the same time, the same bed, and yes it is the same me. I open my eyes when they are wet with a pile of water. I wipe them first before get up for more lecture.
“Do you know what time is this? It’s already noon.” She says.
I look at her blankly. I just look until she herself goes out from my sight. Now I can hear the voice from the kitchen- asking me to do many things. Like usual.
“I don’t want this to be repeated. I just too lucky to have a burden like you in my life.”
Again, I look at the blue sky. Searching for something.
“Ma, can I go out?”
I ask her. I know she is busy as there is a lot to talk but I interrupt her by saying I want to go out. I mean not only for this time...
“Now, despite all of these, you want to be free? Like no one business..” And there she starts it again.
I just give her a smile before I walk out from the house. I hear her screaming but I keep walking, pretending that it is like a music of wind.
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Outside-the air is so fresh. I wonder if I am able to feel the same thing at home. There is a moment where I think I just want to run away. I don’t want to see her. I feel sick whenever she starts to nag about anything- about me to be specific. I remember that she is not like that before. It is just when he was there- with us.
“Jane, can you get me some water?”
I smiled whenever I heard the voice. The golden voice that always makes my heart flowery. I quickly ran to the kitchen, took a glass of water for him.
“How’s your day?” I asked. He smiled like there was nothing through out his hardship. I know he had worked very hard at the paddy field.
“It’s fun my dear. Why? Do you want to join?” He kept on smiling. There were a number of lines around his tired eyes and his skin was not quite clean but darker than before. I didn’t answer him. He pulled me onto his thigh. I was quite small back then as he always let me to sit on him.
It’s the only beautiful memory with him. Now it’s only her and I. No more the golden voice who keep on playing jokes with me. No more time for looking at the sunset while singing together till the dinner is done. No more him. My tears starts to roll down my cheeks. Then I look at the same blue sky. It’s still there. The empty and blank sky.
